We can't stay happy for long, can we? I don't mean I'm unhappy per se, because I am happy in the most inconvenient, unexpected, weird way. I guess that's just me dwelling on the downside of the being away idea speaking. Not ranting here but It's been so long since I went through this whole restructuring ordeal and so sometimes I'm taken by the difficulty especially whenever I get the urge to talk to you but cannot. I'm still adjusting and right now, trying to place emotions in their proper places. Sometimes, it could really get frustrating and sad, to say the least. But it’s a welcome challenge, one that I easily permitted myself to embrace. When I said I am willing to take the risk, I meant plunging in with all what-nots. No I don't wanna doubt; it's not helpful at all. You've earned my trust albeit my not telling you that. But I just want you to remember that this is a two-way traffic, that there are things we have to prove in our own ways so we can survive all things else together. What I have been praying for since Day One, when I had the epiphany, the realization of the fact and its parallel possibilities is for the faith to help me through days like this, for the wisdom to know things so I wouldn't hurt myself, and for the hope that eventually the right time will come.

I made a promise and I have no intention to back out on it. But should I ever break it, I want to make sure that I've taken all means and measures to have prevented myself from doing so. As always, I'm waiting. My point is...I miss you.

It says:

Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!

BAD DAY.

BAD, BAD, BAD, BAD, BAD DAAAAAAY.

damn tardiness, damn lateness, damn it all!

when will i ever learn? argh.

Your touch is electric
I felt it the first time you held me
The way we connected
So easily

I've tried to define it
Searched for the perfect phrase
I've tried to describe it
In a million different ways

It's joy, it's ecstacy, it's truth, it's destiny
And even love is not enough to tell you how you make me feel
There's only one word for this

I've got to admit it
You took my heart by surprise
Don't know how you did it
But baby, I've never felt so alive

It's joy, it's ecstacy, it's truth, it's destiny
And even love is not enough to tell you how you make me feel
There's only one word for this
It's bliss

Hey, you know, baby, know what the future holds
As long as you're here with me

It's joy, it's ecstacy, it's truth, it's destiny
And even love is not enough to tell you how you make me feel

It's faith, it's honesty, it's life, it's everything
To say "I love you"'s not enough to tell you how you make me feel

It's in your smile, in your kiss
It's the reason that I exist
There's only one word for this
It's bliss

It's bliss

It's bliss

Rose, tara kape tayo.. sa Tagaytay.”

November 11, 2009

I woke up way too early yesterday. I believed I had slept around 12 MN then I got up at 3 AM. Well, I need to be at the office that early because I’ll be seeing Ram and Cyril after their respective shifts. I was at the office around 5:30 AM then Ram and I headed to SM Mall of Asia to fetch Cyril. Around 6 AM, we were there at the mall to meet Cyril.

However, Cyril had a call and he came out around 7:30 AM. Long call, huh?

First stop. We decided to grab a coffee at Starbucks while waiting for Rose and Ella. It’s funny because while the Barista was trying to build a rapport as we took our order, he just asked out of curiosity and this line was the one I will never forget:

“So, you’re a balikbayan right?!”

We laughed out loud and I answered back, “Hindi ah, taga Imus lang ako. We’re currently working at Makati“.

Let these pictures do the talking. *winks!

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right till the end naging selfish ka pa din. you still wanted to keep a part of me while im here dying just to get by with every minute of my effing life.

hindi mo ba maintindihan? na hindi ako titigil kakaasa at kakaisip that you would love me back the way i need you to hanggat hindi ako umiiwas? hanggat hindi ako maka get over?

i need to get over you.

i need space. i need time. i need everything but you. just so i could move on with my life. just so i could forget you. just so i could find myself again.

i need to have you branded. asap.

much as i want to fast forward through this phase, i know i can't. i need to go through this whole thing to be able to get back on my feet. to start anew.

so when the time comes that someone who is willing to love me the same way i wanted you to love me, someone who would treat me right, someone who could give what you couldn't give, came along i would be able to give my entire self.

but until then, i have to be beaten up emotionally by you.